Saturday, May 22, 2010
A touch of God
Since Tristan's Birthday on Wednesday our minds have been replaying every minute of the time we were down with Tristan in Indy. Friday would have been a year anniversary for Tristan's baptism. That was something we were excited for. Although we wish everyone could be present our main objective was for Tristan to be baptized in the event something happened in his surgery the following morning. That leads us to today's anniversary. This morning a year ago the two of us (with my parents present)went through the emotional, soul searching experience as we waiting for Tristan to return from we consider a touch from God. One of the many difficult things about this day in Indy was signing the waiver for surgery. To hear the odds of Tristan not surviving the surgery and what all they were going to operate on were something our minds could not comprehend. But like an angel doing God's work, the surgeon completed the surgery with no problems and our boy was returned to his new home in Payton Manning's Children Hospital or the PICU as we have referred to it. He had is chest opened up when we saw him next but to us there was no opening. Just our baby boy fighting as hard as he could with what God blessed him with.
We will continue through this day which has become much harder than we anticipated. We had wild dreams from last night and only more I am sure to follow tonight. We have learned not to question the past or "what if" he didn't have so many heart issues. We like to dream what it would be like to have him here with us today and in the future but it is always our Tristan. We would have him no other way.
He is with us. Especially when times are tough. And the smile I see from him when I close my eyes, takes the pain away.
We love you Tristan.
Mom and Dad
We will continue through this day which has become much harder than we anticipated. We had wild dreams from last night and only more I am sure to follow tonight. We have learned not to question the past or "what if" he didn't have so many heart issues. We like to dream what it would be like to have him here with us today and in the future but it is always our Tristan. We would have him no other way.
He is with us. Especially when times are tough. And the smile I see from him when I close my eyes, takes the pain away.
We love you Tristan.
Mom and Dad
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death,
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grief,
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infant death,
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loss of a child
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